#like with job apps but anyway

[bookinit02]

i really do think there’s a huge disconnect on here w/ people who have never used tiktok as to what it actually is and who actually uses it. the number of people i’ve seen call it a “teen dancing app” is actually insane. it has not been a teen dancing app since i was in high school, around 2016 - 2020. the main communities i saw on a daily basis were 1) black history/anti-racism educators, 2) high school & college teachers sharing in-classroom strategies and frustrations with the education system, 3) local/state political leaders giving real-time updates on behind-the-scenes government decisions, & 4) community activism & leadership. like tiktok is an adult platform. almost every person i interacted with was my age or older. and yes it completely depends on your fyp and how you interact with the app, yes there’s still teenagers and dance videos and literally anything else you can think of. but these communities of adults aren’t insubstantial at all, they have literally millions of interactions on a daily basis. there’s about a million other types of communities that i could name just off the top of my head, because the range of users was SO diverse and thriving. it’s a long-distance community tool, just like any other social media—and honestly much better than any other social media, because it relies primarily on the kindness of strangers. i saw at least 5-10 videos today of queer people in rural areas panicking because they don’t have any access to queer community on any other platform or in real life. and before i end this i do want to say i think tiktok is coming back, i think this is a highly orchestrated political move, etc., but i do know it won’t ever be exactly the same. people are panicking about free speech violations because tiktok was a place where people fucking SPEAK. i have never seen mass mobilization and communication in this same way for as long as i’ve been alive. it is the people’s app, not just a silly teenage thing. if you’re not on tiktok and never have been, please stop talking about it like you know anything at all😭

[cinderellakinnie]

mmmmmmmmmm trying to work some shit out yeehaw

[royalarchivist]

Tina: [Talking to Empanada] Oh my God, I'm sorry I was gone for so long […]

Cellbit: Absent mother, huh? Thank God that I am a- uh… It's better to not touch this subject and move on. In my defense, my son is dead… To my knowledge.

[ Translation via @CellbitENG ]

[dontbadgerme2233]

It's so nice being a Moon Knight fan when you don't have a comic purist telling you how much you suck for enjoying the show as well.

[boytransmission]

what’s ur workout routine? cause the things i would do to look like you are CRAZY

Regrettably, nothing right now. I used to work at a commercial paint store where i'd haul- no hyperbole incoming- hundreds of 60-gallon buckets of paint for 8 hours every weekday, which got me a bit of muscle that's visible in some posts up until June of 2024. Most of my coworkers also paired that w the gym to get a damn strong bulk. Once i get stable work hours and finances that don't leave me with a negative credit balance at month's end, i'm absolutely buying more protein and fat rich food and heading to the gym w my roommates because i really wanna build muscle again. I need to be BIG and STRONG so people have extra firm handles to grip when they fuck me

[starsnores]

gamzee

[deus-ex-mona]

the opinion i’m not allowed to have: i genuinely think tsumurin could help concon get better™️

[fitzrove]

Not only have several of my former classmates gotten married, just found out that now one is having a kid?? 😭😭 just reiterating: i cant believe some people my age are doing that dklsldls. Where do they find time to work/study AND develop intricate crown prince rudolf headcanons once they do that

[the-gayest-show]

i LOVE procrastinating this is fun i KNOW i have assignments to do but i cannot bring myself to do them. i am actually bored out of my mind. i have assignments to do and im bored. i COULD do assignments but i can't be bothered to start

and then im stressed as i realize ive eaten my whole day up doing nothing. is this laziness? i heard being lazy meant relaxing but im doing everything but these assignments. and i feel awful

[kimjunnoodle]

a 5 min doodle on my feelings about friendship

[sk8erama]

Day 1 of spending no money was a success but idk how much of that can be contributed to me since my grandma paid for my lunch and my dad paid for my dinner 😝

STILL THO I think before I got to bed tn I’m gonna dec out my new bag so I can finally start using it, and I think I’ll put my wallet minus credit cards in there.

I know this won’t be the biggest help since most of my big frivolous purchases happen online but still, i think it’ll be good to at least remind me that I can’t be as careless about it as i used to be.

ALSO I finally got my bathroom all cleaned up and organized 🙏 I knows it’s just one small part of my room but I’m so relieved to have SOMETHING done. I’m still proud of how clean the living room/kitchen is but those are spaces I’m gonna have to continuously clean so I can’t be happy w it for tooo long (esp since I’ll be moving my bedroom shit in there to help w organizing)

REGARDLESS THO I think tmrw im gonna try to focus big time on cleaning my bedroom and closet, calling my dad to see if he can come install some stuff for me, and tidying up in the living room and kitchen before my Roomate comes back

Ghhrrr I’m so ready for everything to be in order, and I *know* that might not be possible to get done, but I’m REALLY hoping I can make a noticeable improvement, once I get the harder parts done it’ll at least be easier for me to finish up the next day 🤙

[throughpatchesofviolet]

One thing I've been wanting to mention since yesterday is that I've decided to go back to using a task manager to plan out my week--I did this all the time in college, and it helped me feel more in control, so I figured I'd bring it back as part of my many goals for this year. I've only been doing this for a day, but it's already helped a lot!

I put in my work shifts as tasks, and it helps me plan around them--I'm starting out with simple chores and self care, but later I want to try and add writing and drawing projects, so I can finally start making progress on all the ideas I have rattling around in my brain.

[ruelpsen]

If I had to choose between cutting off my hand and redoing grad school apps, I'd seriously consider the hand. Be gentle with yourself, it's a fucking slog. What kind of program are you looking into?

Thank you for the reminder to be gentle. This shit has been stressful, and having for various reasons only about a month and a half to actually do focused work on applying has SUCKED. Not looking forward to potentially having to do this again in the future (it's complicated but I'll explain why in a sec), but I am SO looking forward to two weeks from now when these applications are in and it's out of my hands, as much as the waiting game itself sucks in its own way.

As for programs, I don't want to get too specific. I was a double major in undergrad, and I'm not exaggerating when I say I've literally never met anyone else with those two specific majors. (Ftr one is a STEM field and the other in the humanities.) I want to keep studying both in some capacity in the future, but to make a long story short I'm stuck in a position where I have to hold off on applying to the program in the humanities for now.

As annoyed as I am about the 'long story' part of that, I'm totally fine with prioritizing the program in STEM for now. Hell, in some ways that's a good thing given the limited amount of time I have to work on applications. But at the same time, I've greatly limited the number of schools I'm applying to so I can focus on creating well-tailored applications for their specific programs and faculty, and that means each potential rejection would leave me with a far smaller share of options. It's a bit of a risk, but damn it I'm trying my best to show how strong of a student I've been and that I would work well with their specific people. Hopefully things work out in the end.

I hope your own efforts have paid off too, wherever life has taken you.

[arts-i-enjoy]

AHHHHHH

[ace-malarky]

okies one present down aha

I have not done much writing this last month!! I did not find the balance with dragon age oops

I also have a job app to do this next couple of weeks :((

but the present I still have is the fun bitey Maverick one hehehe so I can take breaks to reward myself

also I'm like two pages off finishing this notebook and ok technically yes there are other pages I'm going to fill before considering it fully finished but like. It's been less than a year! I finished a whole notebook in a year! absolutely ridiculous what is up with that

very funny to me that the first thing in here is dnd and the last thing will also be dnd. cyclical y'know I dig it

[queenhawke]

got a date lined up with a MOVIE PRODUCER of all things which im v excited about. do u think she'll be impressed if i tell her i got rejected from film school